I'm Not Out

I've got to tell you guys it's a really difficult decision to decide to come out to everyone, and personally that has been heightened by the fact that I have sort of molded this image that they're used to seeing of me - this perfect child who is intelligent and is... just a tomboy. Which is obviously not who I am.

I really wish I could tell you otherwise, but this is my reality and I struggle with it every waking moment of my life. It's a miserable life and if you can have all the support of your family I would suggest coming out. 

Obviously, if you're an adult or live on your own then you can do whatever you feel will make you feel like  you. 

For those with a supportive family you should recognized that you are very blessed, and it's not like that for everyone and life is made much more difficult. 

But the reason I'm not out is in my current situation I live with my grandfather while attending college, and he would not in any shape or form supportive (I am absolutely sure). I am trying to get a job in this tough economy, and I'm saving whatever money I can for gender therapy.